You Gotta Swim

"I swim for brighter days despite the absence of sun"

When I feel like the world is pulling me underwater and nothing goes right, I remind myself that it won't always be this bad, it will get better. Life is made up of a series of events, and how we handle these events makes us who we are. Every fall, every stumble, every tear, every heartache makes us stronger. It's funny how after all the clouds have gone, we realize that it wasn't so bad. But never during the storm can we appreciate the beauty of the thunder.

I've been thinking about starting another blog to document the process of getting through a breakup after a long-term relationship. My hope is that others who are going through the same thing can read it and find strength to keep their head above the water and learn from the mistakes I've made. Through all of this, I wished I had someone who went through the same thing to talk to and confide in. But not having that made me learn so much, and grow as a person.

My current feeling is like rain in the sunshine. There's nothing more beautiful than an afternoon rain in the summer when the sun is still shining; it makes the world seem so much brighter. My soul is so filled with Hope right now for reasons unknown to me. It just hit me all of a sudden, like a fresh breeze on a spring morning. There are so many things raining on me right now but all I see is the sunshine.

I feel refreshed

song suggestion of the day which inspired the painting I did above: Swim by Jack's Mannequin

From Prom Dresses to Engagement Rings

I went to Dallas for the first half of my Spring Break to visit Samantha, my best friend through 9 years of school, and to celebrate her new engagement. It's so weird that the person I basically grew up with is now moving into this whole new stage of life. I remember when we used to listen to Jimmy Eat World and pretend we were walking down a runway in her room. Now I'm shopping with her at David's Bridal and helping her plan a wedding. She asked me to be the maid of honor and I couldn't be more, for lack of a better word, honored. There are so many words jumbled in my head that I can't iron out to say right. Luckily I have a year and a few months to perfect my toast to these two. They really are so blessed to have each other, and I feel so blessed to have them as friends. 

This is going to be a crazy year. I can't wait to see what God has in store for me.

I just got home this evening and I finally got to see my niece and nephew for the first time in two months. It was so heartwarming to hear the giggle of a 2 month-old and the rants of a 2 year-old. I always feel so much love when I'm surrounded by my family. It feels like it's floating in the air, like a seed off a dandelion. 

The Joy of Living

I have this new found joy of living. It's so great to be able to dance, and sing, and just let loose and be free of all the worries and stress of life. It's so easy to let everything bog me down but I've got to keep that joy and inspiration to push me through it all. There are bigger things than my stupid PCHEM test or nutrition project. 

I went to the Pillow Project this afternoon and I had an absolutely amazing time. It was great to be around a bunch of super cool people and just let loose. We had a massive pillow fight, how cool is that? A group of college students decided to have a pillow fight to raise money for the Boys and Girls Club and try to beat the world record. I honestly don't think it could get any more bad ass than that.

DJ Mary Jayne was spinning and I was dancing with a little group of people when I realized how amazing this life we live is. It didn't matter what everyone else thought of us acting like fools. It didn't matter that we were the only 6 people dancing out of the 100 people there. We were having a good time. That's when I finally realized I'm back to my old self. I feel so alive now. 

I don't know if it was the amazing weather, or the amazing music, or the amazing people. But today brought life back into my soul.

It was amazing. 

God, this feels so good